I don't believe in you.
That help?

Ehh, sounds like something pretty normal...I don't care if you're driven off of hate. And I don't think anyone should treat you like...well, like how you described your grandmother. So fuck her, fuck life and get wasted. Amen.

I want you to hate me too.
That way we can keep getting some awesome flash from you.
You suck. :P

Btw... That was an epic post.

It's great isn't it?
When I first started with the afro-ninja thing I would get some 'pft' responses from people when I said I wanted to make a job out of it. It's not that they disliked me, they just weren't giving me any credit. But whoops, looks like I have the more favorable career now.

The emotion isn't as strong with me, I would call it annoyance over hate, but it's still the same motivation

You gotta put in better fuel. You know what I mean?

What is so terrible about an old lady telling you that making Flash is a hobby?
What's so bad about a whiny complainer?

I guess you can say, I don't really understand ^^;

you are..not..very good? damnit i just can't insult you D:

I never had a hateful grandmother to motivate me. :0 Maybe that's why I never finish anything. :[

: Keep telling me I'm worthless. Keep Putting me down. Keep insulting my intelligence. Keep dissecting my work. Keep on with the ridicule.
It Doesn't Stop me or slow me down like you think. It keeps me going Strong.

Isn't that Stampers job??

Hmm... you are a failure and shall never amount to more than the pile of dust that lies beneathe your chair, and your flashes are nothing short of regurgitated anal leakage from a mexican restaurant....

damn I know i dont mean that, your flashes are fckin awesome, definately more than what I can do right now, even if i did get a tablet! And yeah, my friends constantly call my drawings doodles an stuff, and that gives me a reason to strive to be better than them at drawing.

Sinitron's post motivated me to kill him. So that's cool.

Anyway, MC, don't let it all get you down. If you didn't like her, fuck her. And motivation is driven by contempt for a whole lot of people. it's really pretty normal.

So when your lacking motivation, pretend the afterlife is real and picture the bitch watching you, snickering at how fat and blaxican you are. then take that and turn it into drive to prove his wrinkly ghost ass wrong.

u are a loser with no life and u cant hold down a girlfriend and u smell bad!
happy?
I am^_^

Man up or you'll never be able to create something worth anyone wasting even the juice that keeps their eyes wet whilst they watch your shite.

Fag

fuck you

We all know you were always seeking to please her deep down inside, and now you'll never have the satisfaction of her admitting she was wrong.

Sorry for your loss.

Don't let it kill your spirit. It's the reason I come to NG every day, waiting for Pico 2.

Hate is the most powerful motivator.
More than money
OK maybe fear's more powerful

well good riddence to that bitch. least' my grandma is nice :P. sry tht your grandmother was a total skank. if that offended u in any way (i doubt) theni am sry XD

Alloy is gay

Wow, just wow

my grandmother is the same way, she says that I shouldn't try to make a career out of animation and stuff. That it's just something to do for fun. She is such a bitch to me but then she can turn to my brother and be soo damn nice. It pisses me off and no point in saying anything because I would just get in shit. So once I make a career out of animation and she's all old, then shes gonna feel dumb and stupid and it's all gonna be worth it.

I've had some people tell me that it's gonna be hard to do and what not but that only adds fuel to the fire to make it a career and do the best I can.

So fuck all the haters and if they don't like what I do then they can keep complaining, and I'll welcome it till they get pissed and leave.

BTW

Hi MindChamber, whats up? :D

you cant finish anything you're a failure no one loves you anymore :C
now FINISH all that stuff!

hahaha, got me there.

I'm... glad you're grandmother is dead? Don't stop making... Red Baron 2? What are you working on these days anyway?

Even though she is dead it doesn't mean that she can still piss you off. You said that you get angry every time you smelled her perfume right? Well if you are lacking motivation then take out that perfume bottle, smell it,get pissed, and keep on doing more of your work just to prove herself even more wrong even though she is dead. There's always the theroy of the afterlife right?

Mindchamber, you are the best there is and ever will be at just about anything.

</3 Mindchamber

The most relevant comment at the end of reading this is just to simply say 'someone needs a chill pill'. I dont know how you can just be so arrogant and basically rude about someone so you can act all pretentious on Newgrounds.

i hear you -- for the longest time, my parents looked down on what i did. i was always just "spending too much time playing games" and "playing on the computer." it never occurred to them that what i could be doing actual *work* and have so much educational value. i learned more from using computers and "playing games" than school ever taught. granted, my parents were right in saying that i needed to be more well-rounded and "get out of the house," but all the time i spent putzing around on the computer gave me a passion for learning and made me who i am today.

thankfully, my parents weren't too set in their ways, and now they really recognize the value in what i do. that, and my dad likes imdb, so i think him and the internet are on good terms now.

hate and the need to prove yourself can be a real driving force. but, like you said, it's probably not good to have it as your primary motivator. otherwise, it's easy to focus only on proving your antagonists wrong -- and not enjoying the passion for what you love to do.

Thanx alot.... sorry for being pushy..tho..

well i know u hated her, but what pissed me off was the queer who you were messaging. Pisses u off when some random guy over the internet starts calling u names or w/e. Its sad for your loss, but then again u hated her so...never stop making flash. thats all i got to say.

why are you shelling out cash for her funeral? it seems kinda anti-climactic.

anyway, congrats on having someone you loathed kick the bucket! :>

funny the way the shit works out... heh.

YOU are the reason i'm going to get good at drawing dudes. SO don't die on me XD

but I've been meaning to ask you..
Botz Attack Demo is pretty sweet man. Around when can I be looking for the game? :O

I need a manipulating bitch in my life.

Wow...

So, you can't just make Pico 2 without Tom. God damn him and his many obbligations.

so im guessing you enjoyed playing disorderly rite?

Great story. But I don't think it was the death of your grandmother that temporarily demotivated you to animate. I think subconsciously you liked the idea that hate motivated you, and thus you gave yourself permission to stop working that day just to strengthen the theory. Like, I know hate can motivate you, but I don't think once your motivated one less person to hate can't stop you. Could be wrong, though... it doesn't really matter. There's always going to be people that hate you out there.

I remember when my sister said that I'd never get any of my google adsense money and that it was a scam. Now I get a cheque almost every month :) Or when she said that I'd never finish some project, etc. etc.

Here's how to heal.

Go out, buy a new lottery ticket, spit on it, and throw it on her grave.

She can't pay you back for any suffering she's caused but fuck her. You're still here and able to laugh, smile, fuck and fight. She's nothing but a memory now.

Best wishes man, you'll bounce back. Ain't no one going to hold you down. You ain't nothing but rainbows and sunshine since there's one less shadow in your life.

I'll have to agree with Mike on this one. If I understand you correctly, Jose*, you didn't "just" want to prove yourself to your grandmother (and to yourself, perhaps?), you also hated her quite a lot and that hate was also a powerful motivator to you. And that's not such a good thing, I'd say. Let me explain.

Wanting to prove oneself to others can happen for lots of diferent reasons, but mainly it comes from the fact that they don't expect it. That dosen't necessarily happen only from people that hate us (or do us harm), but it's not a bad thing, quite the oposite, it makes us to strive beyond what people expect of us; it makes us want to go beyond our (perceived) limitations. That obviously quite good, as long you don't go overboard (like everything in life).

Now that she's gone, you've lost some of your motivation and it really leave you feeling empty. I felt the same after passing my post-grad entry-exams; It had been such a huge part of my life for over two years that after the initial joy, I felt a little empty too. And it's quite normal and should pass when you find new motivations to drive you (in my case, it's the motivation to merely survive my post-grad).

But hate, that's something a bit diferent and, to me, it really is a bit like the "Dark side of the force". If your motivation is hatred / anger towards another, you don't just want to overcome the obstacles that person throws at you, you may also want to strike back at them. And I think that too may explain why you're feeling strange right now, since it's quite likely that you always wanted to see her suffer, and now that's she's gone, you may have lost that motivation and/or may feel guilty about what happend (incredible as it may seem).

Anyway, is hate a good motivator? What happens when people aren't aggravating you? Or what if you lose control and try to strike back at them? It's not impossible, I've certainly lost control some times and I regreted every single one of them...

I just saying all this because I admire your work greatly, you're a very gifted / talented animator who was produced many works that have brought me a lot of happyness by watching them (I still watch Pico's Unloaded from time to time). Whatever your reply (if you do reply), I say you deserve cheers and kudos for your animations!

* Can I call you Jose despite the fact we've never comunicated in our whole lives? Or, in this instance, do you prefer Mindchamber? And should I be giving out this sort of advice when I have an important exam just after tomorrow? Or any time, since I'm just a post-grad student in economics? And what if you just wrote all that to make me "waste" my time answering? I really, really shouldn't have writting this much...

...

... Too late now...

hey, how about adding jase from killing spree in newgrounds rumble?

Hmm, I'm afraid I don't know you well enough to really make a call about what makes you tick, Jose, but when you were describing your enthusiasm for pre-production Transformers Comic Con and explaining to me what it was you would have done better, the writing you sent them, etc., I don't think you were doing it to spite your grandmother. That was for you.

When you and Bob were fervidly discussing back and forth the future of Newgrounds, I don't think you were secretly flipping her off then, either. But you sure seemed into it.

Passion is passion, and you've shown that you can reach for it from places other than hate. I'd have to guess that for better or for worse, she was important in your life and her disappearance is going to jar you a little bit. Time's gonna tell better than anyone who responds here, but I think you'll manage.

I feel like a jackass for leaving a short reply to so big an issue for you, but that's what I've got to offer. Good luck big guy!

Ya know... at first you seem like a big meanie/tough guy.
But after a long time a came to a realization. Your just honest with yourself and don't care what other poeple think. So basically... Your the strongest type of person out there.
When my father died and was there for my sister but didn't really care that much. He always spoiled his "little girl" rooten and always told me how disappointing I am and how my dreams will never come true. Eventually I stopped mourning him period. I figured "Why do I have to work hard to try to impress some dead guy I didn't even like?".
Ya got a good supply of fuel there man. lol Your actually quite lucky. :P

ur trash and a waste of skin ;D

you good for nothing peice of shit, you'll never amount to anything!

im helping :D

hey man. I love your work.

Your last words on this were pretty moving. You shouldn't take word from a bunch of knobs who can't animate (make that even DRAW) for sod all! I guess you could say you are one of the people who enspired me with your cartoons. I am starting flash animation now. Pretty soon, I guess I'll post here. Keep up your work dude!

You do NOT suck. You rule! :)

ok that post wuz cool but the real reason im here is i have an idea in NG rumble add Dirge from Xombie

i'm leaving a comment on the besty mod ever's page! w00t!

Man, I wouldn't want to say sorry for your loss because I wouldn't want offend you. But, I am sorry that she made you feel like that. You're an enormous talent and don't have to apologize to anyone for following your dreams. How shitty to have someone that is supposed to love and care for you mentally abuse you. It's really sickening, and I am sorry.

Maybe one day you could find a way to forgive her, and let go of those feelings. I hate sounding like a douchey Oprah episode, but holding on to those feelings will just hurt you in the end. Then, she really won't have any power over you.

Peace bro

Hm... lemme put it like this bit for bit. I had to laugh out loud when i read about your irony of covering her burying costs. Dunno if its heartless of me, but that sure had me laughing hard. Very long comment with examples below.

About your fueled anger, ive felt the same way about my family. They think that they can stomp on you telling you that youre this and that, and insult you because they dunno what your real intentions are. Pressure on your shoulders, which drives you insane that you just wanna throw a big rock on the person who got you sweatin. Then youre like all pumped up and aggressive and wish you could break their fuckin faces, because they dont know a shit about you. Its a deep thing. I used to think about it a lot and eventually wished that some certain family members were dead (note that it was all talk only), just because they kept talking shit. But when your mind gets clearer, you start thinking about what it would be like if they died, and you ask yourself if they really deserved it. All the hidden aggressive anger inside me took me to a very blank spot. All the hating just doesnt make sense anymore. But still the hate had already turned my heart into stone... or ice... icy stone, yeah whatever. I developed strong stubbornness. On the contrary of what you say about you getting stronger from all the shit you took, i felt like being chopped in pieces. All the pressure and bullshit that i was hit with made me creep together in a corner and i became quiet and very depressed for a long period, which is why i fuckin hated them. But eventually the tables turn. I could say that all the hating only made me... stronger. Wow what cliché. Stubbornness made me stand up and it filled me up with my own motherfucking desires. All because of hate. So yeah, youre ultimately right. Its YOUR life, YOUR desires and YOUR moves. Anyone who scold you can eat a fat dick and rot in hell. No one else should dare standing in the way, they will just fuck around and get stepped on. And thats the taste of stubbornness. It might not seem bright, but life is a bitch. People just have to deal with it. You got two middle fingers. Use them wisely.

But on the other hand... next time just try settling down with your relatives and work it out first, its much better that way than family conflicts. They really sting. Fighting fire with fire should be the last option. I already got scars (bad memories) from doing it.

Well aside from that rant about some you hate( ican't really relate except to say that whoever i hate the most, i'm becoming because im just sitting here) know that here, at least, there are just as many who love you for the Newgrounds Rumble. btw, are you the guy who made the artwork of hank in the game? I know krinkels did it, but Hank looks so freakin awesome!

oh yeah...you did'nt get confused by wat i posted didya?

do you hate me? T-T

It doesn't slow you down? How could you possibly go any slower than you already are?
(lol I'm just trying to be mean like the rest of the commenters. You're not actually that slow at animating... kind of...)

how did you come up with your username? its pretty awesome

You know I would say you should love your grandma because of your hate for her it drove you to where you are now YOU STUPID PIECE OF ELEPHANT SHIT! But then if you loved her you wouldn't have been driven to make flash YOU PETER PUFFER! So I will do what I can to help you FATCHICK FUCKING GAY ASS HOMO! Keep on doing what you are doing (donkey dick).

Hate and death are very powerful forces, to twist and turn a person's spirit into ways that would seem impossible to the eyes who have never felt it. Ranting and raving about a topic you are all too familiar with would not achieve anything, so I will simply share the thought I have operated off for many years now.

Blessed are those who can turn their pain into art, for the most beautiful things, come from the darkest places.

And I think your art dictates this well. Keep up the good fight!

I made this JUST. FOR . YOU. YOUR CARTOONS ARE CRAP, And are nothing more than a hobby. Not really now go make something AWESOME! http://northchain.deviantart.com/art/
Granny-For-MindChamber-68478469

FINE! YOU SUCK! YOU DON'T KNOW NOTHING AND YOU'RE A FAILURE!! YOU MAKE MEDIOCRE FLASH AND YOU'LL NEVER BE GOOD AT ANYTHING!!!

But I do like your work. Does positive influence help at all or is it backwards? Also, you still make good blogs. And if ridicule does make you strong, I trust this comment won't get deleted, and I mean no hard feelings. Just sarcasm. Which maybe some queers can't understand, eh?

Keep it up.

Also, forgot to mention. I have empathy for the subject in your blog. I may not have enough in me for writing as much as Vert or Hammi, The only thing different is the fact that I don't know if you've ever felt such hate as to feeling pure rage, anger, contempt, and much more from the mere sight (or perfume as stated in your blog) of her. However, did you live with your Grandmother at a time?

....Huh. So much to say and express but not enough feeling to express it, you know? Perhaps I may hear from you later.

what the hell is Merekat Manor?

Is this the time when we hug and share feelings, or can I just see your vagina already.

HAHA! U blocked me because u cant take the truth that U SUCK! S O W E A K ! ! !

Amazing. I can relate. I believe that hate is a human feeling that in some sense, we need. If we had no feeling of hatred or dislike, where would the need to be better be?

I think this is great.